So Im pretty sure my best friend is mad at me for not going to her kids birthday party today. I can understand why she would be mad because she always comes to Corahs but I never go to her kids.
I have really really bad social anxiety, no one understands and just tells me I need to grow up. I havent told her that this is the main reason I dont come because Im afraid she will take it like everyone else and just tell me I need to grow up. No one understands that it is a real problem.
She texted me yesterday and asked if I was coming and I told her no because I had forgotten about it since Corah took off with the invitation and i never seen it again. Which is true, but also its from the overwhelming fear of being around people I dont know in a situation where I cant just get out when I feel anxiety. I also told her that I would get her daughter something and bring it over this week if she would let me know what she wants. I never heard back from her.
I really hope she isnt that mad at me. I could not see her not being my friend anymore. It would devistate me. She is my only friend who has been there for me no matter what over the years. I dont have many friends to begin with
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